Hello Anxiety

Hello Anxiety- it's nice to meet you.

I've always been a worry wart since I can remember. But for the past couple of years, I've noticed that I get extremely overwhelmed for no reason!

I cry over the dumbest things. Throwing something in the trash and it misses, spilling my water, not seeing my husband for hours and hours at a time.....

But then I find myself crying over things that do matter...my husband being on a university campus with shootings going on in the nation, a one income home with a baby on the way, and the stress of wanting to do more than just be a mother...

It's exhausting.

Call it hormones with the pregnancy, but I've had episodes like this before I was expecting.

As my husband works and goes to school full time, I can't help but to put the responsibility on me to make sure the house is clean, dinner is made, and be somewhat in a good mood.

Sometimes I'm even lucky if I make the bed people. So I am really hard on myself.

As my due date comes closer and closer, I worry that this anxiety and hopelessness will make a permanent home with me.

When these feelings come, I get scared and feel alone. I get scared that happiness is really far away. I don't feel like myself.

So. I'm done being this "sad Morgan". My friends and family know me as being funny and lighthearted. Not this tense and tired person.

I've decided to talk to a therapist. That is not something to be ashamed of. At first I thought it was, but I've learned that listening to others will not help.

I've also decided to write about this because it gets a lot of stress out and it brings awareness to the fact that it doesn't matter who you are, anxiety strikes anyone.

I'm going to take charge of MY own mental health and not care what anyone says otherwise.

I'm excited to be me again :)

So to Anxiety, we're going to have to break up.