Piano and Journaling

I had my first session with my therapist- and it went great! 

I felt like 55 minutes wasn't nearly enough time though...haha. 

      

 It's wonderful how much just having someone to listen to you, you already start to feel better. 

During the session, she stopped me and said, "You know what I think your major problem is? You don't have any confidence in yourself. You never really stand up for yourself, do you?" 

I stared at her dumbfounded. She was absolutely, positively CORRECT! 

There have been only a handful of times, in my life, where I have stood up for myself. I am too shy or scared of rejection.

She said that is where the bulk of my anxiety has come from. Eye. Opener.

For homework, she gave me two exercises:

     One: Keep a journal. Write down everything I feel. Don't worry about grammar or if it flows.  

I've been doing this and I love it! I recommend it to anyone who has an endless about of streaming thoughts. I don't feel as overwhelmed.

Two: Say no. Have an experience where I stick up for myself and say no. Without explaining myself.

This I haven't done yet. There has been an opportunity, but I was too scared. So that is definitely something that I have to work on. 

Then, we also talked about how I was lonely with my husband being gone. 

She told me I needed some hobbies. She asked me what I love to do.

Six years ago, I quit piano. I've always wanted to start up again. 

Then I've also wanted to try yoga.

So after my session, I booked lessons with a piano instructor (it felt so good to be back on the bench!) and I found a prenatal yoga class every Saturday. 

Piano is going to be hard, but it is something I've always wanted to do. 

I don't want to go through life regretting quitting. 

There's a famous quote that says, "I never said the path would be easy. but I know it will be worth it." 

     Let's do this!